ever & ever ache
by m
Give it up, she whispers.
I cannot give it up, she cries.
Give it up now, she threatens.
Or what? Or what will you do to me that I have not already survived?
You cannot touch me,
you cannot crush me, there is no force that can silence
or end it.
I know what I am
and I can never give it up.
Go silence another beating heart.
This one, still on the quietest nights,
you will hear, between beats, an
ever & ever ache
for the breath of your life
against my skin
again.
Once. Twice. Never. Always.
Say it isn’t real.
Say it was a moment passing
Say it was a mirage-here & gone-
before it ever existed.
Say goodbye, say nothing, say
everything you think should be said at a time like this…
It does not change this sound that is with you now
and always evermore:
the sound of
ache on ache,
the sound of
lust given and forgiven & drawn into a parallel universe,
the sound of fate & free will
twisted into a karmic mindfuck,
ever & ever ache
too still to make amends
deeper than the silence carries.
Sing on, sing on, hold on tight, if that is all that is left of you.
Mark your hour, make your song, be your all & all, ache on, ache on
ache.
